I'm who I am

What does Relationship really meant? Why should everything go sweet at the start?  And why does it gives a lot of pain in the last? When a 5 years relationship came to the end it's really so damn pain . I don't even knew is it he felt the same as mine ? I thought I am a good and understanding girlfriend but at last he proved me that I was wrong . A lot of broken promises, a lot of hidden secrets  & a lot of lies. Is it my fault to believe in him so much? Is it my fault to ask for a better future for both of us? Is it my false for always with him on his up & down moments and encouraged him ?  Is it my false to get disappointing every time? Is it my false for being selfish to have him (all mine no sharing) ?  Or I should blame myself for hoping for a little love in return for all my sacrifices? I'm also just an ordinary girl that dreams of a happy ending as those in fairy tales that I read during my childhood. I am not ask...

T he few things that comes in your thought when someone says birthday Gift / Present  Balloons  Cake  is a must (Maybe) But for me its just a normal day without any things from the above . Except for my  Twelve Years old birthday  - brought a cake to school to celebrate with my classmates - &  Twenty One years old Birthday - Small birthday party with few friends at a mini hall - ❝  S ometimes I am just wondering how nice it will be if someone  rings my doorbell at 12 midnight for give me a surprise on my special day .  ❞ - Only Happens in my dream -       M y T wenty3 rd   Birthday just past on Monday . I t was just another bored day like always . Went for birthday eve dinner at Pizza Hut its my treat for my family  .  Last selfie before I turn T wenty3          I slept late on my birthday eve because some of my friend called m...